Sunday, September 13, 2009
Boy, is it hard. Have I said that already? I am feeling very discouraged right now, however, there is a part of me thinking, "Why do I let food control my life? I don't let anything else control my life. I am a strong, intelligent and independant woman." Would it be easier to have a nicotine, drug or alcohol addiction? I wouldn't know...my addition is food.
I've been doing alright. I had a friend over today and we made dough boys...sigh. I couldn't help myself, I had to eat a couple. Drizzled...key word here is drizzled, with chocolate and caramel. In the past, it would have bathed in it.
I find it easier to be on track while I'm at work or when Logan is home. Everyone at work is so supportive and always asking how I'm doing and I really appreciate that.
I still need to do my measurements. I've been on this new eating adventure for about a month now and I feel better. I have improved my breakfast options drastically, as well as lunch and dinner. When Logan is home, I really stay on track so that he sees that I'm eating better and I think he has noticed. He questioned my there were so many vegatables in the 'fridge a couple of weeks ago!
I sometimes wonder if I'm destined to be fat? It's bad enough I'm so damn tall, but to be fat on top of that. People usually do a double take. I can't do anything about my height...I can do something about my weight...and I am trying.
Thanks for reading and keep coming back!
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
OK, so here are the dreaded pictures that prompted me to start this blog:
Now, this is NOT the picture that led me to cry. I also want to mention that even publishing these photos is EXTREMELY embarrasing. I am mortifed that I am doing it, however, this is my road to weight loss.
Yes, I am the one in red, towering over everyone, with the fat ass. I was MORTIFIED!!! I had no idea that's how I looked from behind. It is truly disgusting! I can't help my height, however, I can do something about my weight. I will admit, my jeans are just too big, and I figure if I had a tighter pair on, I would have EASILY looked 100lbs lighter...LOL.
I almost deleted these photos from the blog...I had to talk myself out of it.
My plan for tomorrow is to get up and walk in the AM before it gets hot. I just made my egg beaters for breakfast for the rest of the week. I am armed with my healthy snacks to curb hunger in the afternoon. Another salad for lunch! I am surprised that my body didn't reject the salad I ate today. I probably put it into shock eating roughage!
I am going to the farmers market this weekend with a friend from work and I plan to pick up lots of fruits and vegatables.
Again...not as hard as I thought...but I am only on Day 1.
I'll keep you posted!
Monday, August 17, 2009
So, I decided to create this blog to track my progress. I am going to take before pictures, as well as measurements. I'll be sharing my frustrating, triumps, downfalls, etc here. Food is my comfort. I eat when I'm bored, stressed, happy, sad, mad, lonely. I turn to food for every emotion and it scares the hell out of me with the realization of, what am I going to turn to now?
A lot of it is mental and I need to re-program my thoughts to more positive ones.
I plan to start exercising, eating better, etc and I'll try to share my days, well...daily! I am going to start walking on my lunch breaks tomorrow! I am actually excited!