Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Wow...

Struggle is putting it lightly....
I turn to food when I am stressed. I have been very stressed at work over the past couple of weeks and I just want to grab a cupcake, cookies...anything at this point. Yeah, I know...go for a walk instead. That is not even comprehendable to me. How do you compare a nice, delicious cupcake to a walk!?
For the most part, I've done well. I've had my moments of weakness, I won't lie. I've had a cookie here and there. I haven't touched donuts, which is a first for me. I was at a baby shower last Friday and I had some cake....it was so fricking good! I don't think I'll ever loose the taste for that stuff!
Everyone at work has been so supportive. I've been eating Raisin Bran for breakfast this week, last week was Egg Beaters and sausage. Last week I ate salads for lunch, this week I'm winging it. Had yogurt for lunch today and then some Wheat Thins.
When does this get easier? How pathetic to have something like food control every aspect of my life. I can take over control...it's just so hard.
A friend at work left a book on my desk today...Skinny Bitch. I'll start reading that tonight. Thanks Tammie! I need all the inspiration I can get at this point.
I'm just glad I'm not alone in my struggle. At work, we compare our struggles with each other and offer support. I just wish they were home with me at night and on the weekends!
I'm having an off day today...just really tired and annoyed that I let work control my emotions today. I didn't grab any junk...yet anyway. I don't have any at home to eat and it's driving me nuts right now, that's a good thing though because I do not have the self-control tonight if I did have junk here.
So it goes...

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